Saturday, March 29, 2014

New Moon in Aries 3.30.14

Much time to think, I have felt like the past two days, months have gone by. The Aries energy has been
working magic allowing me to see so much more clearly. I am hearing many things from many of you. It is riding this ride. Knowing that the more into this Awakening the less others can relate to us. It is being secure and okay in this "isolation" that naturally happens. Until of course more Awaken. I was having a conversation and someone just started to pick up the language I was using but energetically was speaking just words there was no energy behind it. It is getting aware enough of these individuals who genuinely may wish to understand what you are doing, but also don't wish to really get to the core of it or do any of the work for themselves to change their life. Instead just mimic the words you use thinking this is it.

I have been meditating a lot and the same thing comes to be the guidance which comes. For me I realize as many of you are realizing that we can't put in all the work (for anyone) we get worn out and there comes a point of this stillness. Friday the universe gave me what I thought I wanted. It turns out it was what my mind thought I wanted. Not energetically truth. These experiences do have to happen, allow for them. You will know fairly quickly when you are just going through the motions in any situation. I decided on Thursday to spend the weekend dedicating my practice to moving meditation. To have this be my focus for the next few days as my way to cleanse and prepare for this New Moon in Aries. Granted I feel tired but in this state my mind cannot wander far it stays in the present moment and all the "blocks" that are still inside are coming up. I was making breakfast this morning after being at the beach and just started to cry. The release is happening. Allow for any release to happen. Even if its something that normally doesn't happen for you.

Friday I realized who is truly solid in my life. What I thought I wanted I realized has no substance it is just air. It is those people who you may not talk to all the time or see very often but when you do they are solid and completely there for you. After a while you come to realize the list actually grows smaller and smaller. I went on a nature walk Friday night. I noticed shadows on my walk. How the light hit the floor. I was very receptive to the environment because of my openness. I enjoyed the walk, however I became hyper aware of so many new things. 

I came to a plant that really literally spoke to me, I had to pet it, and instantly when I did so I missed the cats. As on another nature walk, long ago, cats followed. This walk I felt the energy of the trees and the plants and lights became distorted. This yellow bounced out at me out of all the shadows.

This tree truly makes me happy for some reason when I stood by it I just felt it needed a voice. 

Friday night I had a series of dreams from all the moving meditations finally settling in. I had one particular dream in which I saw vampires. The scene changed and a bird (smaller baby bird) was flying about. There was a cage in view, it was indoors yet outdoors. A person wished to catch the bird, made a paper bag with things inside the bird might enjoy- a new world or environment. Eventually the bird was caught in the bag, the person thought this bird would enjoy this. The bird peeked its head out and wished to see the true outside world and not be confined. It began to have cat like qualities in movement. Then it tried to use its wings like hands very bat like in movement to get out of the bag. The person then pushed it back in and wished to keep it in there, eventually moving it into the cage. The bird stayed for a while eventually repeating and wishing, pleading to be let out. I woke up before I saw what else happened. I of course was very disoriented in walking up I saw colors and patterns on the ceiling above me. I went to moving meditation. I felt at home where I belong. All the beautiful energies. I further afterwards went to the beach I meditated there, I tried this new thing of beach moving meditation. I was then called a nomad because I move place to place quite frequently. Over the past few weekends I am never in one place to long but just move about, wandering, experiencing. I am easy going and move about freely. In this meditation, in my surroundings of the beach, I realized I am the bird. I wish to be free and experience, not caught in a bag as this was a message to me. Particularly some will not understand why I act the way I do, why we act the way we do. We can all mutually wander on the same path but not put in an environment someone thinks we should live instead.

This saying is very powerful and also how the sleeping world views things differently. Awakened we view things differently I have been called to view things differently through this dream. As I share it will all of you. When we are in New Beginnings in Aries look to ways you have been confined perhaps by others doing to you, or you have done to yourself. Being caged can come in many different ways. We have all experienced this in some level. 

Birds as animal guides in case you have ever felt that a bird is your animal guide I will cover the general meaning of this- each bird has a specific meaning. I however saw a generic bird meaning. Birds are symbols of thought, imagination, and the swiftness of spiritual process and relationships. As winged creatures they are of the air element and represent the loftiness of the spirit. Birds exist in spiritual harmony. Birds bring angelic messages through songs as there is a connection between a bird's song and the angels. Often a bird's song is the mysterious stairway to the spiritual worlds that we can listen to to recognize these messages delivered by the birds.

The bird is a connection and invitation to look into your Soul. Birds can fly above and beyond this earthly realm. They represent spiritual attainment. In relation to my dream, I see how current situations and a particular situation is holding me back from my spiritual attainment, where I have needed to let go. It all hit me very strong as Aries energy is not subtle. This way is not my path. In comparison I see in others where I can fly free, there is no force, no trying, "no" does not exist in vocabulary. There is only mutual teaching I am embraced for all of me. The beautiful energy that has a light quality to it. Night/Day in comparison to each other. It is calling to look at places you thought and people you thought were there for you or to be with yet they wish to hold you down or catch you place you in a bag or place of confinement. I see this as a mutual symbol to be shared as we are in a time of new beginnings. We've had some time to observe how people are responding to our change and transformation since the Equinox or since the beginning of the year for that matter. For a while people may have played along, while others embrace and nurture this new path you are on whole heartily. True natures are coming up you can see the truth about people. Feel free! Be free! 

This New Moon in Aries has a very strong pull it is bringing together the Equinox energy from March 20. We are visualizing and bringing in all things for this coming year. Last year around this time as I have mentioned before I made a list of all things I wished to accomplish. Since many of the things have come to be or are in motion. I was just starting up Padma Bella and now it's growing continuously but I never would have imagined then it would be where it is now. I also was talking about how my moving meditation practice has taken me places far beyond even my imagination. For me this year I wish to continue to improve my diet as in being more aware of what I put into my body. Being more mindful and cleaning up things that only make me feel icky. Continue to improve Padma Bella. 

It is truly sending positive vibrations out to the Universe on Sunday but also everyday. I felt how people "fake it" or just say the words but energetically don't mean it. Setting an intention is the vibration as comes with moving meditations. My experience at the beach was this person going through the motions but not getting it's true purpose. We are shifting right now- shifting meaning our self how we operate creatively our power is coming into reality. You may physically notice this shifting first like unable to sleep, sleeping more, hyper, headaches, body aches, etc. When we are lining up we get this serge of energy connecting with our 
inner child. We are blissful and happy. This week we have been receiving new ways of thinking, fantasizing, imagining ideas. Maybe you have noticed the energy of embracing your true self, and letting your imagination wander. Mercury also in the mix has been allowing us to see exactly what we want to create in our life. Think where do you want to be in five years? In a year? In a month? Next week? Start with the end in mind. What kind of relationships do you want? Where do you want to be with your physical self? Your career? Your home? Spiritual practice? What does this look like for you? It is liberating to have the freedom to expand on this. Perhaps you did this last year and now can notice how you have changed from things you thought were important before and what you wish for now is more humble and less detail oriented but just something as simple as I want to be happy, healthy and at peace. Whatever else comes in terms of "stuff" or people becomes a bonus. 

Aries allows us to plant the seeds yes we began so on the Spring Equinox but now it's really packing the dirt down on these seeds and sending some love and watering them. If you have come up with more things, add this too. Perhaps over this time you have realized more of what you don't want than what you do want. Answers come in however they come. It is a time to anchor these in time and space. Take time to clarify which direction you are pointing for this year. Know that changes may come, I experienced changes over this past year- it is being able to go with the flow. It may just be it's not happening right now, not that it's never going to happen. So if you notice a change in something you wished- the universe is at work but you may have to take a detour or a scenic route instead before you reach it. 

The seeds we planted on the Winter Solstice last year we get to set into motion now too. If you did not participate in this, no worries focus on the New Moon in Aries. For those that have done work from the Winter Solstice of last year perhaps you have been doormat during the winter since the Winter Solstice with these things. Now is the time for movement. The Aries energy is all about fire and passion and moving us into life now. We are off on the quest in Spring. As I said we already intuitively know, now it's time to wake up and move about. Aries energy is here!It is the cycle of things we planted over the winter nurturing now we can act on these (if they haven't already started to come to motion.) The seeds we plant from this Spring Equinox will be nurtured for the Harvest Moon in September. 

We are coming into who we are meant to be and with this comes courage. We are grounding this new identity. It is taking root.

"Venus in Aquarius challenges Saturn in Scorpio to hold onto our high ideals and our unique gifts in relationships.  Old relationship wounds need to be transformed into understanding, as our higher Mind gets activated.Our visions of the future must be grounded in our collective welfare." - Cathy Pagano

“What is evident is that there is huge emphasis on big changes in lifestyle, nutrition, exercise, addressing old issues and healthy empowering emotional expression. This is not going away, rather only increasing its symbolic or literal pressure to ensure that each person takes this seriously and makes the necessary adjustments in a realistic way." -Dipali Desai
“Yet we do have to keep in mind that this Lunation is conjunct Uranus and square Jupiter and Pluto- so this New Moon cycle also takes us into a radical month of shake ups, wake up calls, breakdowns and breakthroughs of massive proportions.  This is personal as much as it is collective- so pay attention to your Inner Life as well as what is happening around you in the coming months.  

“There may be times when life is really chaotic and the only control you have is on your reactions and your response to what is playing out around you.  I have been saying this for months now, but it cannot hurt to say it again here:  Finding your center and strengthening your capacity to return to it again and again despite the storms outside will serve you well in the coming month. This kind of astrology has a really BIG energy around it and many people can feel it amping up right now.  Apocalypitc thinking won’t serve if it only causes you to go into fear.  But if you don’t know the true meaning of Apocalypsia- you should know:  it means the lifting of the veil.  Sometimes specifically it means the lifting of the bridal veil. We all have amazing opportunities to lift the veil this coming month.  The veil of delusion, illusion, deception- of self and by others.  The veil of confusion, lack, disconnection and apathy.  And yes considering the bridal veil connotation- we may even get a glimpse of the Goddess in her full glory in the coming weeks!  So keep your eyes, mind and heart open!”  -Divine Harmony

We are in a very powerful time as I have started prior. We have this New Moon in Aries which is planting the seeds for the cycle the year. However this will continue to grow as and is setting us up for the Hunters Full Moon in Aries which is a powerful lunar eclipse October 8 when all these things come to be prior on or maybe soon after. It is all holding the Aries energy. In April and May we have balance with a Lunar New Moon Eclipses and Solar Full Moon Eclipses. 

The New Moon in Aries occurs Sunday, March 30 at 2:45pm (ET), 11:45am (PT). New metamorphosis are here!! Embrace all the magic that is coming, however it comes to you. Be out in nature this weekend. Go for a walk, do something on your own. Leading up to this New Moon energetically many beings have wished to spend time with me but really my calling is now to plant the seeds is to go internally to really sense it. We have a powerful grand cross too that has been building energy since the beginning of the year to magnify this New Moon. We've learned many lessons since January, and now it is when things get real. Aries is in Conjunct with Uranus which is the planet or revolutionary change. If you notice change it may just stir up feelings. Nothing is holding you back anymore. Perhaps you have noticed a shift in what you thought you wanted back at the January moons. It's been beautiful hearing some of the epiphanies going on lately of what you truly have found you wish to experience. Learning more about you. Facing this change and recognizing it is temporary (whatever emotions are coming up). I read this and brought a smile to my face: "something quite lovely is going to happen that is unexpected. Sometimes it's just the timing that is unexpected." We are the bird we are wishing to expand our wings we are almost there. We are so close, no rush to get there but feel the pull to something greater! This is the second New Moon in March. Everything of this year has been leading up to this Aries New Moon. Know what you want, dream it, see it, wish it. Do it. 

Further note I have energetically for some months felt April (Aries sign) is going to be many revelations and epiphanies) coming to us. As I looked further ahead the reason the Full Moon in April is strong for many of us is because it also is a Lunar Eclipse. 

In the mean time visualize. Cleanse your space we are in Spring. Cleanse yourself. Be free and truly feel what you 

1. Sit in a quiet place in nature or in a place that brings you calmness. Reflect on all things you wish as yourself: Think where do you want to be in five years? In a year? In a month? Next week? Start with the end in mind. What kind of relationships do you want? Where do you want to be with your physical self? Your career? Your home? Spiritual practice? What does this look like for you? What are short term things you would like come to be? How are ways you can improve yourself further? 

2. Be grateful for all you have. Look to your journey this past year from the last new cycle this time last year. Be grateful for every experience that has led you here. You are exactly where you need to be right here. I love hearing this as it brings calmness. 

3. Cleanse your space light sage, burn incense, light a candle see this as a new start for this cycle. Feel it with your heart. 

4. Even if it is still cloudy just sit and see what comes to mind when you just are sitting without thought. Or go through a moving meditation. Particularly this week we have been tuned into the Universe.

5. You may journal a manifesting list or a visualization board for this. If you wish to write it out use your New Moon journal.

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From one wandering nomad to another enjoy!!

Friday, March 28, 2014

Blue Egg!!

Epic Friday! I woke up tired as I finally experienced the restlessness that I have been helping so many of you overcome. Aries energy is really here!!! I had a series of dreams however once I woke up I could not recall anything. One time in particular I heard a voice say blue egg, I became confused, I was shown a blue egg. Completely random in a dream. In a trance like state one of the times I got up and finally understood and just gravitated toward the crystals and I knew exactly where to reach and held a blue egg. I proceeded to hold it and went to sleep with it in my hand. I instantly fell back to sleep in a very peaceful state. Pay attention when things like this come up for you. I've had multiple dreams about crystals. Listen. Be.

The bridge is happening! We are moving from the Heart Anahata Chakra into the Throat Chakra as we are also moving into the Aries New Moon new cycle energy. I was guided to my angelic guide and various things came to me under my wise oak tree. This crystal is to all aid in the channeling as the movement moves up into the higher chakras in the coming weeks. Guides have more messages for me I can feel it energetically. So much beautiful energy, I have really been going with the flow. This morning I looked up to see this beautiful moon shinning down on me. So much energy the photo came out fuzzy but you can feel the energy all the same. Even after my sunrise moving meditation I still wished to get up and move and do something not sit behind a computer and write a lovely New Moon article for all of you. So I went out and enjoyed late morning dancing! I'm so energetically uplifted I felt at peace dancing with my blue egg in hand.

For those of you waiting on the New Moon Article, it is coming. I will write it by Saturday (there is nothing to prepare for) we have already been preparing since the Equinox on March 20 so just go with the flow. It will come when it comes. I have it in my mind's eye but the energy pull is so strong for me to be out and experience and just dance about. Burning sage to release an injury I got as you can still see blood under my nail. I am floating everywhere, embrace all this magical energy right now. We are coming into a new cycle I am reflecting about all the seeds I planted last year at this time, and so many have come to be. I am so grateful for how much Padma Bella has grown. 

New projects in the works! I can't wait to share them with you!!!!  Here is one I am very excited about!! Stay tuned for more on the Aries New Moon.

Thursday, March 27, 2014


Magic is following me everywhere!! Wednesday night pure magic! I have been noticing the more centered I feel and the more I am just enjoying life, energetically my vibration is higher. I wish to play more, have fun more, and it is being received and magnified back to me this energy. A being I met only two hours prior, as we began to be guided into another land, this stranger took my hand. Many thoughts may stir up of course, I just received a warm smile on my face as our eyes were closed with no thoughts. I did not wish to disturb this magic as I knew we were to travel together in this space where I met my angelic beings and many creatures. The beautiful journey I was guided to while many visions have come many feelings and a beautiful warm honey feeling. It is coming to a place of stillness where the yumminess happens. Know your heart, listen to it. 

Be aware of when physical illness, pains or emotions come up. This is your higher self telling you to address something. Each of these have so much deeper meaning. Yes we can dismiss it, take a pill or write it off ... however for growth to happen we have to embrace what is right now. Being aware of where you place your feet on the earth. Where each part of your body is within this space. We are focusing on the Anahata so it is not uncommon for you to feel sudden pain or pressure in your chest where your heart resides. This is calling that you have work that needs to be done. Something that is still deep within you. Relax and know it is coming for you to acknowledge. I heard something very humorous that we often run away from what we fear or what is best for us. Simply because we are not ready for it or it scares us. We need to actually face the thing we need most! One backs off because it is easier to go the other way or to give up or give in or any other number of "reasons" it is looking and running towards it instead. I have been receiving many emails and having various one-on-one sessions where "pains" are coming up physically. Each of course is unique and it's a good thing this is happening. It's what is meant to happen. It means you are working through your Anahata. However when it does get too overwhelming I can aid in the addressing and releasing of this energy in guidance of how you can move forward. If you wish email about a one-on-one session. Wednesday I received many different requests for sessions and it is not something you should go alone (especially if it becomes extremely overwhelming). Again know your limits.

Further I have felt this week that I have been transported to a different reality or way of looking at this world. Last week the gadgets that are used to clean and dry clothes broke. New ones have been purchased, however it has been a journey for them to come (and still not here). When they broke it was of course laundry day, so the past few days I have felt like a child again playing dress up. Looking at all the things I have in my closet and seeing how creative I can be. It is about being playful from the heart. Play dress up everyday! It has been making my last few days so much fun. When you get ready in the morning allow your imagination to take you away. See your jacket as a cape, your skirt as a long flowing gown, maybe even style your hair differently. Be organic! Now of course I am washing clothes by hand in the sink and hanging them to dry outside. Even this is fun because I feel like I am in a fairytale energetically that the animals, the birds, the wind are all helping when they are drying outside. Of course people have said why not just go to a laundromat but where is the fun in that?? Sometimes life and the Universe calls for us to be creative and resourceful to not be caught up in our ways but to see how we can flow organically and maybe do things you wouldn't normally do like hand wash clothes and hang them to dry.

"Don’t sit and wait. Get out there, feel life. Touch the sun, and immerse in the sea." Rumi

This morning I enjoyed such amazing company I once again got a call about the heart chakra. Pain that you feel here is your opportunity to look at where you can work through. My group meditation focused all on the heart and how to breathe through it and into it and radiate out from it. As I have learned for me to best help all of you I need to be centered and pure and clear and have my heart be whole. It is whole, it is over flowing. 

As I was driving home last night this song immediately started on the radio as I started my car.  With someone, not with someone ... share the love all the same be free.

Next in the Heart Chakra series:

Wednesday, March 26, 2014

Loving Heart

"What is a loving heart? A loving heart is sensitive to the whole of life, to all persons; a loving heart doesn’t harden itself to any persons or things" Anthony de Mello

Today and everyday it is about being gentle with yourself, know your limits. Yes we do need to push our limits to get forward but it's knowing your edge and when it should be pushed. When it is too much. We all have bad days but it is how we handle this. It can consume us if we wish and let it. Or you can chose to embrace this and be happy. 

Each day we get the opportunity to learn more about who you are. Each day I love myself more and more. I realize that in this time of stillness I receive challenges but these are to make me stronger. We encounter people that may push us know that you can always take a time out. A five minute time out to compose yourself does wonders. This can come in many forms. It can be physically stepping outside to compose yourself. Breathing deeply at your desk. Meditating for five minutes. Forward folding in your office. Yoga in five minutes. I think this has made me smile the most, all the yoga poses I get shared that have been done in five minutes when work has gotten too stressful. Of course each is what you wish to practice. Many of you I have heard wish for discreet things that don't look too "weird" but the weird can lighten the mood too. Do what makes you happy and comfortable. I find no problem just doing what calls to me at any given time. I did so the other day I was at a shop and just decided I needed to release some tension from the day ... who I was with gave me a bit of a strange look at first. My big smile of course eased any "weirdness" and I felt better and we can't take life so seriously. Especially if something has overwhelmed us, look at why has it? 

Pay attention to your vibration, when you feel at your wits end you are unbalanced somewhere. Start with self love. Look to ways to help yourself. When you are centered and grounded you can then continue about your tasks. Try scent therapy if you work in an office. Rose, Ylang Ylang, Jasmine and Chamomile are calming to the Anahata. Use this scent therapy as a way to cleanse your aura. Clear your sacred space within you. You can even use scented essential oils, lotions to carry this scent on you through out the day. This is a great way to center and calm yourself. I enjoy this when I know I am going to be encountering many different energies I pick the scent that will create the most happiness in me. 

Close your eyes... Feel the light shining brightly in your heart. Expand it, and beam it out to all living things! Take time out for yourself. If you work with others try bringing crystals to create a more calming environment. I had a conversation yesterday in which someone brings crystals to the office. However yesterday the rose quartz became "lost" it of course was out for an adventure needing to complete some work. As crystals disappear for a reason. It of course was found. It is something that you can do discreetly create a crystal grid on your desk and program it to the office environment or what you wish for help with. If you would like more information on how to incorporate these for your own unique situation sign up for a one-on-one session =)

Next in Heart Chakra series:


Very strong integration still going on. Many of you have shared with me having trouble sleeping. Sleep when you can, becoming stressed about not sleeping that amount of time you believe you should is not going to help anything in the end. Go with the flow. This has happened to me many times. Nap when you can, breathe calm and deeply when you cannot relax. At least if you are unable to sleep you will be in a calm reflective state with the breath. I offer services to aid in sleeping as well as this has been passed down to me. Know sleep is coming.

As this week we are focusing on the Anahata Chakra how expansive have you been feeling? How have you been incorporating color into your life? This week we are all about green and pink. It truly does shift and change your mood. Enjoy all this loving energy!!
"The one person I am with forever is Me. My relationship with  myself is Eternal, so I choose to be my best friend. I choose to love and accept myself and talk to myself as I would a beloved person in my life. I saturate all the cells in my body with Love, as they become ever more vibrantly healthy. I relate with love to all of life" ~ Louise Hay ❤️❤️

Do something today that you absolutely love! Give yourself a hug. Accept yourself completely. I found this article beautifully written, I am sharing it in it's entirety.

Jeshua channeled by Pamela Kribbe

Letting go of the old you

The transition from ego based to heart based consciousness progresses along a number of stages:
Being unsatisfied by what ego based consciousness has to offer you, longing for “something else:” the beginning of the end.
Becoming aware of your ties to ego based consciousness, recognizing and releasing the emotions and thoughts that go with it: the middle of the end.
Letting the old ego based energies inside you die, throwing off the cocoon, becoming your new self: the end of the end.
The awakening of a heart based consciousness within you, motivated by love and freedom; helping others making the transition.

We will now speak of stage three. But before we do, we wish to point out that the transition does not take place along a straight and linear pathway. There are moments in which you may fall back to a stage you had already left behind. But such a fallback may later on lead you to a big step forward. So detours may turn out to be shortcuts. Also, every soul’s spiritual path is unique and individual. So this scheme we are providing you with, of four different stages, should be conceived of as simply a way of highlighting some of the turning points in the process. Schemes and categories are merely instruments that make visible a reality that cannot be captured by the mind, the mental part of you.
After you have accepted your inner wounds and you have healed the traumatized parts of your consciousness as we have described in the previous chapter, your energy shifts. You are letting go of an older you. You are making room for a totally different way of being and experiencing. In this chapter, we would like to explain what happens energetically when you release ego centered consciousness. What happens energetically when you move from ego domination to heart based consciousness is that the heart chakra takes precedence over the will or the third chakra.

Chakras are spinning wheels of energy located along your spine. These energy centers are all related to particular life-themes, for example “spirituality” (crown chakra), “communication” (throat chakra), or “the emotions” (navel chakra). The chakras are to some extent part of material reality, since they are related to specific places in your body. But they are not visible to the physical eye, so you might say they linger in between spirit and matter; they bridge the gap. They form the point of entrance for spirit (your soul consciousness), enabling it to take physical form and create the things that are happening in your life.

The heart chakra, located in the middle of your chest, is very much the seat of the energy of love and oneness. The heart carries energies that unify and harmonize. When you draw your attention to this center for a while, you may feel warmth or something opening up. If you do not feel anything, simply let go and perhaps try some other time.

The chakra below the heart is called “the solar plexus” and it is located near your stomach. It is the seat of the will. It is the center that focuses your energy into physical reality. Therefore it is the chakra that is connected to issues of creativity, vitality, ambition and personal power.
The ego and the will are closely related to each other. The faculty of the will enables you to focus on something, either without or within. Your perceptions of reality, of both yourself and others, are greatly influenced by what you want, by your desires. Your desires are often intermingled with fear. You often want something because you feel you are in need of it; there is a sense of lack or neediness beneath. Because of the fears that are present in many of your desires, the solar plexus is often driven by the energy of the ego. The ego especially expresses itself through the solar plexus.

Through the faculty of the will, the ego literally puts a pressure on reality. Reality has to be squeezed into what the ego wants you to believe. The ego works from a set of basic assumptions about how reality works, which are all fear-based. It presents you with a highly selective picture of reality, since its way of looking is prejudiced towards its own needs and fears. Also it has to place judgments on everything it notices. There is no room for simply taking note of things. Everything has to be divided in categories, to be labeled right or wrong.

When you live from the heart, there is no firm set of beliefs by which you interpret or value facts. You do not hold strong convictions on anything anymore. You have become more of an observer. You postpone moral judgments on any issue, since you feel you may not have understood all there is to understand about the situation. Judgments always have something definitive about them, but the heart is not interested in definitions. It always tries to go beyond what seems definite and defined. The heart is open, exploring, and ready to re-examine, ready to forgive.
When you use ego centered will power, you can sense something pulling on your solar plexus chakra. Using your will in this way is an energetic happening that you can be consciously aware of, if you want to. Whenever you feel this pull, accompanied by a strong desire to have things your way, you are trying to mold reality to your wishes. You are trying to force your beliefs upon reality.

When you act from the heart, you go along with the flow of things as it presents itself; you are not pushing or forcing.

If you work very hard to achieve something and you fail to reach your goals time after time, please ask yourself from what chakra, from what energetic center, you are doing it. Also you can tune into your heart and ask why this thing is not working or why you have to put so much energy into it.

Often you try to realize certain goals without having truly gone within and checked with your heart whether this is what really serves you on your inner path to wisdom and creativity. Also, even if your goals do represent your deepest heart-felt desires, you may have unrealistic expectations about the timeframe in which things will happen. You may be on a timeline that is not of the heart but of the personal will.

There is a natural rhythm to all things, and it does not necessarily have the pace that you think is desirable. The realization of your goals requires energy to be shifted. Energy shifts often take more time than you expect or wish for. In fact, energy shifts are nothing else but you changing.
When you will have reached your goals, you will not be you anymore. You will have become an expanded version of your current self, filled with more wisdom, more love and more inner power. The time it takes to fulfill your goals is the time it takes to change your consciousness in such a way that your desired reality may enter your actual reality. So if you want to speed up things, focus on you and not so much on reality.

Often you even need to let go of your goal, in order to be open to receive. This sounds paradoxical. But in fact we are saying only that you need to fully accept your current reality, before you can step forward into a new one. If you do not accept your current reality and you are holding onto your goals in a tense way, you are not moving forward.

Nothing will leave your reality, unless you love it. Loving it is equal to “setting it free.”

Unless you truly embrace your current reality and accept it as yourcreation, it cannot leave you, for you are denying part of yourself. You are saying “no” to the part of you that has created this reality for you. You would like to cut this unwanted part from you and move forward.

But you cannot create a more loving reality from self-hate. You cannot “will yourself" into a new reality by pushing unwanted parts aside. Will power does not serve you here.

What you need is to get in touch with your heart. The energies of understanding and acceptance are the true building blocks of a new and more fulfilling reality.

When you interact with reality from the heart, you let reality be. You do not try to change it; you simply and carefully take note of what is.
When the heart becomes the steward of your being, the center of the will (the solar plexus) will go along with it. The ego, the faculty of the will, will not be eliminated, since it naturally serves the role of translating energy from the level of consciousness to the level of physical reality. When this translation or manifestation is guided by the heart, the energy of the will creates and flows effortlessly. No pushing or forcing is involved. This is when synchronicity occurs: a remarkable coincidence of happenings which greatly enhances the realization of your goals. It seems miraculous to you when things work together in such a way. But in fact this is what happens all the time when you create from the heart. Effortlessness is the hallmark of creating from the heart.

Creating your reality from the heart

True creativity is not based on determination and strong will but on an open heart. Being open and receptive to the new and unknown is vital to being a true creator.

One key to true creativity, then, is the capacity to do nothing: to withhold from doing, fixing, focusing. It is the ability to place your consciousness in a purely receptive but alert mode.

Only by not knowing, by keeping things open, can you create room for something new to enter your reality.

This runs contrary to what much new age literature says about “creating your own reality.” It is true that you create your reality all the time. Your consciousness is creative whether you are aware of it or not. But when you want to create your reality consciously, as many books and therapy teach you, it is essential to understand that the most powerful form of creating is not based on the will(being active) but on self-awareness (being receptive).

All change in the material world, for example in the areas of work, relationships or your material surroundings, is a reflection of changes at the inner level. It is only when inner transformation processes are completed that material reality can respond by mirroring it back to you through changing circumstances in your life.

When you try to create from the will, for example by focusing on or visualising your goals all the time, you ignore the inner transformation that is the real prerequisite for change. You are creating in an artificial way and you are bound to be disappointed. You are not creating from the depths of your soul.

The soul speaks to you in moments of silence. You truly listen to its voice when you don’t know anymore. Often the soul speaks very clearly at times when you give up and throw in the towel. What happens when you give up and despair is that you open up to the new. You release all your expectations and you are truly receptive to what is.

The despair is caused by the strong beliefs that you had about what should happen in your life. When reality fails to answer these beliefs, you get disappointed and even desperate at some point.

However, if you give up strong expectations and dare to be open to the new, you do not have to reach that point of despair before you get in touch with your soul again. You can become still, receptive and open to what it tells you, without having to be disappointed first.

As long as you “know exactly what you want,” you are often limiting the possibilities that are energetically available to you. This new reality you are looking for, whether a job or a relationship or better health, contains many elements that are unknown to you. Often you think that what you desire is something you know (a nice job, a loving partner) projected into the future. But that is not so. What you are really doing by creating a new reality is going outside of your own psychological borders. And you cannot know now what lies beyond those borders.

You can sense very clearly that there is something very desirable there, but you need not narrow it down by focusing or visualizing it. You can simply look forward to it with a sense of openness and curiosity.

Really, to create the most desirable reality for yourself, self-acceptance is much more important than focusing your thoughts or your will. You cannot create something that you are not. You may recite mantras a thousand times and create a lot of positive images in your mind, but as long as they do not reflect what you truly feel (for example anger, depression, unrest), they create nothing but confusion and doubt. (“I’m working so hard but nothing happens”.)

Self-acceptance is a form of love. Love is the biggest magnet for positive changes in your life. If you love and accept yourself for who you are, you will attract circumstances and people that reflect your self-love. It’s as simple as that.

Feel your own energy, all of your feelings. Feel how beautiful and sincere you are right now, in all of your struggles and sorrow. Youare beautiful, with all your “imperfections” and “faults.” And that is the only realization that counts.

Embrace who you are, get relaxed with yourself, perhaps look at “your many flaws” with a sense of humor. Perfection is not an option, you know. It is just an illusion.

Creating your reality from the heart is to recognize your Light, here and now. By recognizing it, by becoming aware of it, you are sowing a seed that will grow and take shape at the physical level.

When God created you as individual souls, she did not exert her will. She was simply being Herself and at some point she sensed that there was something “out there” worth exploring. She didn’t know exactly what it was, but it did make her feel a little likefalling in love. And she assumed without further ado that she was worthy of experiencing this new and inviting reality. She was also a little in love with herself!

And so you took shape as individual souls and God started to experience life through you. How this all came about – the details of the creation process – God did not really bother about. She just loved herself and she was open to change. And those are really the only elements required for you to create your own perfect reality: self-love and a willingness to venture into the new.

Adjusting to living from the heart

Creating from the heart is more powerful and requires less effort than creating from the ego. You do not have to bother about the details; you just need to be open to all there is, both inside and outside.

From this openness, you may now and then sense a certain pull. You may feel drawn towards certain things. This pull is actually the quiet whisper of your heart; it is your intuition. When you act from intuition, you are being pulled instead of pushing. You do not act until you sense on the inner level that it is appropriate to act.

Since you are very much used to pushing, i.e. using your will to create things, the energetic shift from ego to heart is quite challenging for you. The shift requires a tremendous “slow down.” To really get in touch with the flow of your intuition, you consciously have to make an effort to “not do,” to let everything be. This runs counterintuitive to much that you are taught and are used to. You are very much in the habit of basing your actions upon thought and willpower. You let your thinking determine your goals and you use your will to realize them. This is quite opposite to heart centered creating.

When you live from the heart, you listen to your heart and then act accordingly. You do not think, you listen with an alert and open awareness to what your heart is telling you. The heart speaks through your feelings, not through your mind. The voice of the heart can best be heard when you feel quiet, relaxed and grounded.

The heart shows you the way to the most loving and joyful reality for you right now. Its whispers and suggestions are not based on rational thinking. You can recognize the voice of your heart by its lightness and the note of joy in it. The lightness is there because the heart does not impose; there are no strings attached to its suggestions. Your “heart-self” is not attached to your decisions and it loves you whatever you do.
Living from the heart does not mean you become passive or lethargic. Letting things be without labeling them right or wrong, without pushing them in one way rather than another, requires a lot of strength. It is the strength to be totally present, to face everything there is and just look at it. You may feel empty, or depressed, or nervous, but you do not try to drive these things away. All you do is surround them with your consciousness.

You do not understand the true power of your consciousness. Your consciousness is made of Light. When you hold something in your consciousness, it changes because of that. Your consciousness is a healing force, if you do not bind it by your thinking and your addiction to “doing.”

Your lives are filled with the dictatorship of the mind and the will, the primacy of thinking and doing.

Note that both the mind and the will work with general rules. There are general rules of logical thinking; they are the rules of logic. There are general strategies for putting thought into matter; they are the rules of “project management.”

But these are all general tenets. General guidelines and rules always have a mechanical component. They are applicable to all or most individual cases; otherwise they would be of little use.

Now intuition works very differently. Intuition is always tailored to one person, at one particular moment. It is highly individualistic.Therefore it cannot be subjected to rational analysis or to general rules.

To live and act according to your intuition therefore asks for a high level of trust, for your choices are then purely based on what you feel is right, instead of what other people’s rules say is right.

To live from the heart thus asks you not just to release the habit of overusing your mind and your will-power; it also challenges you to truly trust yourself.

It will take time to learn to listen to your heart, to trust its messages and act upon them. But the more you do so, the more you will understand that it is only by surrendering your worries and doubts to the wisdom of your own heart that you will find inner peace.

When you proceed along this path and you enter the third stage of the transformation from ego to heart, you will find inner peace for the first time. You will realize that it is the urge to control reality through thinking and willing that makes you restless and anxious.

When you release control, you allow the magic of life to unfold. All you have to do is listen. Be alert to what is happening in your life, to what your feelings are towards other people, to what your dreams and desires are. When you are alert to what is happening inside you, reality will provide you with all the information you need to act appropriately.
For example, you may be aware of a desire in your heart for a loving relationship in which you truly communicate with another. If you just notice and accept this longing, without trying to do something about it, you will be amazed about how the universe will respond to it. By not drawing any conclusions, but just holding the longing in the Light of your consciousness, your call will be heard and answered.

It may take longer than your expect, for there are energy shifts that have to take place before certain longings can be fulfilled. But you are the master, the creator of your energetic reality. If you create it from fear, reality will respond accordingly. If you create it from trust and surrender, you will receive everything you desire and more.

© Pamela Kribbe

How are you wearing green today? 

Tuesday, March 25, 2014

Anahata Heart Chakra

So it is!! A beautiful morning experiencing much bliss freedom and waking up to rain. Cleansing. Experiencing the Heart Anahata Chakra energy is exactly where I needed to be after this weekend. My injury of course was leading up to this moment. Everyone has been extremely kind helping me take it easy. I often speak of my personal life yes, but leave out many details. In this case, I feel the details will help many of you. As we have all experienced love, all experienced heart break and all have come to terms with all that unconditional love we have within us. This week the focus is on the Green energy color gem that flows in us that is of the Heart Chakra. 

The heart chakra is the bridge between the natural earthly experience of the lower chakras and our intuition and experiences with the higher chakras. Everything comes from the heart through the heart. I have always loved unconditionally putting others in front of myself, in a majority of matters. We all on some level have done this at one time in our life. Of course there needs to be a balance so that the energy continues to flow. I asked a question why did the "rock" just appear and give me this new injury. Through this retreat on the Anahata Chakra, I received the answer, and through that answer I realize that on some level many of you are experiencing this in your lives. Yes I do offer one-on-one services on this topic as this is speaking about it generally and every situation is unique. If you wish to receive a personalized message about your situation, I would be glad to aid you in your discovery. The website is still being re-designed so it is not current with services, simply view the store on the right side of this page. 

The heart chakra is a wonderful powerful energy that I feel daily and every second it resonates deep from me. A couple years ago for some reason I started wearing various rings I had acquired that were of different crystals. I really had no idea why I did this, other than an interaction I kept having energetically this being always seemed very interested in my latest crystals (before we called them this). This experience is what really started my wishing to dive deeper in this world. A spark that began with something so simple. It has since of course grown to so much more. 

A couple years ago, I met the love of my life. This is far beyond what is written about in the books or seen in the movies. There are no title or words to describe all that I have felt from this. We of course went through many trials and times of separation. I will say we have been a part more than we have been together. I have learned more about him when he has not been in my life. We are of course separated again as this is the way the Universe wishes for it to be. When we first me he sparked a remembrance in me knowing and recognizing exactly who he was and who I was in relation to him. We have gone on many adventures together and with that also many breakups. Yet for some reason the Universe has always pushed us back into each others lives over the past two years. So I asked why this physical injury? I knew it had to be something with the past that is preventing me from moving into the future. This is why energetically I had been called to wear his gift of the Rainbow Topaz.

Under my wise oak tree the answer came, I truly have to release. The past of us, all our lifetimes have been holding me back and him back. In order for there to be a future, we must let go of the past (even the stuff we can't remember). I realized I had to release all aspects of him from the past for there to be a future with him. It is the most scary thing, as we have all felt it. Once I did I felt such a lightness about me. So much love everywhere.

Letting go, being free and seeing the balloon drift higher and higher but in this there is liberation a energy that flows around this balloon a fire that ignites and once that balloon has seen and experienced all it's many adventures on it's own, the flame slowly lowers it back down.

My soul has recognized it will find no other better. Yes we can carry on in life with any number of people but to find and live in unity with this mirrored essence as the Co-Creating Couple is far beyond just settling down or living life out with just anyone. However, in some cases we do have to do just this if we wish to experience life with someone and when our vibrational match decides not to pair with us for this life. For even a short while in this life- my final life on this Earth I experienced this deep true Divine Love. For me this is enough, I can't ask for anything more. I have often felt that this is my last time on this earth, meaning I am not going to be reincarnated but travel to another dimension or another place all together to continue my work there.

I hear often people dealing with breakups and them thinking it's the worst possible thing ever! That every person is "the one" but when you have found "the one" and they have broken your heart, you love them so much unconditionally that you realize chasing, or getting depressed, or any typical post breakup ritual energetically is telling you this is not the one. I say this because nothing separates this truest highest love. We never experienced any of this drama towards each other in all our breakups. Even physical separation or them not wanting to be with you is sad yes but pining and being all dramatic after it's already over it is you fighting this. To truly love someone who breaks your heart who you know is the one energetically for you and there is no one else; their leaving gives you the opportunity to fix yourself to lift up the vibration as a whole. I won't get into all the details of it here. However, I simply wish to say that when you are whole and love yourself unconditionally and have boundaries to protect your own self this is when you can love fully and healthy and freely. The truest highest love cannot be broken by anything. For whatever reason the Universe has wished for my heart to be broken many times into a million pieces by this person. I have let him go because I am in love him so much, with all my heart and I will always hold a place for him once he wishes to Ascend and Awaken (in any lifetime). This is why when he further started my Awakening whenever we would be close to each other my heart beat could be felt at random places, my heart was truly awakening to his vibration and our Divine Love from all the other lifetimes.

The heart chakra is about unconditional selfless love. To love others is through compassion and to love yourself is through compassion. The only way I can describe this love from all others is you feel a mirror on all levels being sent back to you. The mind can trick us into thinking any number of people is this unique soul match. There is only one and it is felt through our Anahata. For me my soul knew the first time I saw him. This cosmic dance we have done in this lifetime has brought many levels of Awakening. As I roam and wander this earth once again on my own, my heart is whole, it is full.  I have accepted he may not remember, understand or even agree with any of this or even come back again (in this lifetime). My face even has changed as I write this as when we are with this other being we mirror and shift our outward appearance. Someday in some lifetime he will realize all that I have. Someday and in some lifetime we will be all that I have seen and felt. For me that is enough to have remembered, met my Soul match and experienced this love in this lifetime (even if it was just for a second) ... look to ways you can bring Divine Love into your life (even if you are alone and this is just for you to experience).

As we focus on the Anahata energy it is looking at what this word means "unstruck" or "stillness." I have said we are in stillness we are in transition. For those of you who find yourself post "breakup" or have yet to feel this with someone and are fixing yourself know we are mutually all in stillness. It is recognizing our brokenness and pain needed to happen to lead to our wholeness towards our intuition and above all love. Breath or pranayama balances the Anahata. The clairsentient or touch is the sense that governs this chakra. When you are highly intuitive this is from the heart chakra. Hugging how we relate to the person inside the body. Being highly sensitive to touch indicates heart chakra sensitivity. This level of awareness brings you can feel inside what the other body feels and the other person is aware of what you feel inside your body. This brings a sense of relating to the person inside the body. This mutual sharing is very powerful and often only one participating can feel the other has a block somewhere and may only feel partially. As the Anahata is an air sign if you have difficultly breathing it is a tension in this Chakra. How your body reacts to air, your relationship with air reflects your relationship with love. 

The Anahata is connected to our love center and any how we truly heal. Any situation that may have hurt you it's hurting the Anahata also. Physical illness because of heartbreak requires emotional healing along with physical healing. Situations such as grief, loss, emotional abuse, divorce, abandonment, and adultery also impact the Anahata. "Love heals all" is a powerful saying because one has to have honest self love to secure your Anahata Chakra. When you feel like a helpless wounded child this is a lesson that you need to empower yourself from your lower chakras in order to have compassion for yourself to heal yourself. Learning that to have unconditional love for yourself is where this all starts. If you want better relationships you must have compassion for yourself and treat yourself in so much love before you give it to another. It is having forgiveness for all of you. When you are off balanced the heart, lungs, circulatory system, shoulders and upper back may hurt. Being in stillness is the opportunity to heal.

Over the past month, this particular song has followed me, it would be playing each morning I would walk in for morning meditation and just pops up everywhere.

Green is associated with love and the Anahata. Wearing pink brings self love also associated with the Anahata.

Crystals associated with the Anahata Chakra.

-Green Apatite
-Green Aventurine
-Green Calcite
-Green Jasper
-Green Fluorite
-Green Onyx
-Green Kyanite
-Green Tourmaline
-Watermelon Tourmaline
-Pink Tourmaline
-Pink Flourite
-Pink Rhodonite
-Pink Sapphire
-Rose Quartz
-Strawberry Quartz

The Anahata Chakra promotes emotional healing and stimulates love while teaching us unconditional love and forgiveness. Being in the middle of the chakra system it brings together our higher more spiritual selves with our lover more visceral selves. This is a bringing together of opposites: the mind, body, male and female, ego and unity. 

As my story shares that we all have deep personal experiences of brokenness and pain our heart has been through yet our heart is capable of also healing to feeling wholeness, boundless love and holding compassion.

Planet: Venus
Element: Air
Mantra: Yam
Deity: Shiva

Shiva is the destroyer and restorer of love. The Anahata brings balance to the body and when we are in this balance there is no more concern to material things, no more attachment. The chakra has two overlapping intersecting triangles. The upward facing triangle symbolizes Shiva (the male principle). The downward facing triangle symbolizes Shakti (the female principle). Balance is attained when these two forces are joined in harmony. I found this beautifully written piece on the deities around the Anahata.

"The presiding deity is Ishana Rudra Shiva. He has a camphor-blue skin, he is two-armed. The nature of Ishana is peaceful and beneficent. He holds the trident in his right hand and a damaru drum in his left. The holy Ganga (river Ganges) flowing from his hairlocks is a cooling and purifying stream of self-knowledge: the knowledge that "I am That". The  snakes coiled around his body are the passions, which he has tamed.

His energy is Kakini Shakti, her skin is rose-colored. Her sari is sky-blue and she is seated upon a pink lotus. In her four hands Kakini Shakti holds the implements necessary for one to attain balance: the sword, the shield, the skull and the trident symbolizing the balance of the three forces of preservation, creation and destruction.

It is in Anahata chakra that Kundalini Shakti appears for the first time as a beautiful goddess. She sits in lotus posture within a triangle. The triangle is pointing upward, showing the tendency of Shakti to move upward and carry the aspirant into the higher planes of existence. Dressed in a white sari, Kundalini Shakti is serene and centered within herself. She is the virgin mother and is synonymous with Shakti, selfless spiritual devotion. No longer is she personified as a destructive serpentine force, as is typified by the first chakra. Kundalini Shakti now becomes a goddess and one may communicate with her, the upward-moving energy.

She is no longer coiled around the lingam, but sits independently in a yogic posture. She embodies anahata nada, the cosmic sound, which is present everywhere and is known as "white noise". This sound begins in the heart as AUM, the seed of all sounds.

Behind Kundalini Shakti stands a lingam in which Rudra Shiva appears as Sadashiva (sada: "eternal", shiva: "benefactor"). He is Shabda Brahma, or the eternal  Logos. As such he is Omkara, the combination of the three gunas, sattva, rajas and tamas, which are represented by the sounds A, U, and M, respectively, combining to form the sacred syllable AUM or OM.

He stands with a trident, symbolic of the three gunas. This  shivalingam is the second lingam in the body, and is known as Bana (arrow) Lingam, the first being the Svayambhu Lingam of the first chakra, around which the Kundalini serpent is wrapped. The lingam of Anahata chakra is synonymous with conscience." -Ancient Teachings of Tantra and Kundalini Yoga

Shiva: Om Namah Shivaye
Shiva brings balance between good and evil. When the balance gets disturbed the continuation of life is unfeasible. In relation to relationships. Shiva dissolves the Universe, even if this is our sense of Universe from a relationship. "Praylay" occurs to create another cycle. The un-liberated souls get another opportunity to liberate themselves from the bondage of the material world. Why relationships and things did not work out, a lesson is to be learned and repeated again. Shiva protects souls from pain and suffering by the unhealthy universe by ending it to start a new. 

Kundalini Shakti  is the active force in life. It is the force that makes awareness. The general term for spiritual power is Kundalini. Kundalini is the energy of life that creates awareness. As She passes through the the five chakra of five elements that is panchang Maha bhoot ,each Chakra have its own mantra and powers when developed through meditation how it is done remains a secret with the guru.

Find ways to incorporate green for love and pink for self love into your life this week. I enjoyed the sharing of many loving energies and vibrationally it is magic. We are moving into the higher chakras next week and this one is so important to bridge between all the lower chakras we have already worked on. I feel most at home here in this chakra. In my heart center I radiate much love. I have created a sacred space with items relating to the heart chakra. I invite you to do the same. This is a transitional week, we are heading into the New Moon in Aries on Sunday this is an even more powerful New Moon than we experienced January 30. The Universe is wishing for all to come to be planting the seeds, growing through the heart with loving energy. Letting go of expectations. 

Love you today and everyday!

Ellie Goulding 'How Long Will I Love You' from Jake Scott Cinematographer on Vimeo.

Next in the Heart Chakra series:

Balancing Chakras series:
Crown /7th / Sahasrara Chakra:

Third Eye / 6th / Ajna Chakra:

Throat / 5th / Vishuddha Chakra

Heart / 4th / Anahata Chakra:

Solar Plexus / 3rd / Manipura Chakra

Sacral / 2nd / Swadhisthana Chakra:

Base / 1st / Muladhara Chakra: