Friday, February 28, 2014

Dancing in the Rain

The rain storm, the day greeted me very very early before even the sun with the lovely sounds of rain. I was of course extremely hyper and going on only four hours of sleep, I knew I needed more sleep. It is a time of listening to the body, sure we may feel energetic but in Direct Mercury in Aquarius and heading into the Pisces energy. I of course have been continuing to have many dreams, one in particular very vivid yet when I woke up I could not recall much of it. Other than it was crystal related and a distinct message came through. I had to share this message with who it was directed to. Of course immediately everything just clicked into place once I shared this message, this being immediately knew how to take it in ways beyond. I love when Source plays this dance.

The sky is opening up! The heavens are open ... water is falling from the sky (and has been for a while) the wind is blowing all the drama and stuff we no longer need that has been stirred up by the Retrograde. I really really deeply have been feeling this release. Today Mercury is Stationary in Aquarius and the Mercury Retrograde is officially over today!!!! It was in the wee early hours of the morning. We should all feel a big sign of relief. I of course woke up minutes before the M. Retrograde ended to the lovely sound of rain and wind of course. The Aquarius air is making her presence known. Much air gusts and I have been appreciating the beautiful sounds through the trees, seeing the ground move. I celebrated with meditation and a rain dance. My lovely Being in Light has been constantly reminding me each of these rainy days to go out and dance in the rain. He knows how much I love to dance and it has been the ultimate release. We get so caught up in the weather and potential problems, but look to the beauty of it all. We have Spring approaching, the rain is nurturing the ground preparing for the seeds we are to plant. It makes me joyous to feel the wind and rain on my face knowing I am me. I have nothing else to say or give, I experience everything as it flows into me. I flow out to it. The Cosmic Dance.

Today is a fresh new start to everything. New Moon in Pisces is beginning at 12am Pacific Coast time to start the First day of March. The Spring Moon it is time to plant seeds to all we have in store of manifesting. Today especially be grateful and humble for all you have because I'm sure a year ago you may have been manifesting all that you have now that you may not have had then. It is so stormy outside but I see the wind gusts blowing everything way and allowing such to happen. I have felt and continue to feel so free and liberating. I have found and stretched my wings out. I am of the air. I have no idea where I am going, I can't see the destination but I am floating and the wind to carries me wherever it may, knowing that I will reach where I am meant to go. We are all in the cosmic dance. "Life is the dancer and you are the dance." Just going with the flow we instinctively know with our Soul where we are to go.

So many new things have been revealed to me this week, I am truly excited for all to be. I have a variety of projects yes I will be sharing. I did have two cats I have been caring for this week. After I was asked you do healing on animals? Both so rewarding experiences. The first I of course not sure how long it would take since communicating with animals is very different than with my kind of beings. The willingness has to be there and of course cats tend to just walk away when they are done with it. The first cat was receptive and very interested in working with crystal healing as well. We had sessions for a week to clear up her illness. I felt relief that traditional medical treatment was not needed. Of course I will add that it is personal choice and energy healing does not replace medical treatment. However in the case no traditional medical was requested. To my surprise the second request came, with a second cat ill. I had been hearing of similar symptoms going around. This past case has been more of a challenge. The poor cat would get a sneeze attack with watery eyes and at first just wanted to be alone. It was a challenge to see if the energy healing was working. After a few days of treatment I started to notice symptoms getting worse but the cat was actually wishing to be near me more feeling the energy exchange. I am happy to say that the symptoms are almost all gone now. It reminds me how anyone can benefit from energy exchange. I don't often speak about my healing abilities, as beings of light we all have this ability but often it takes learning how to access it. In my case I see for me, in my journey there are no boundaries my healing of any kind is just that of all kinds, physical, emotional, and for animal beings also. For me this comes naturally and easily. 

I am very excited to map out my future tonight. Read my previous article on the Pisces New Moon Rituals, for more information. I humbly thank everyone for continuing to read. This Pisces energy is all about planning out the big dreams. Dwelling on how it is to happen, is irrelevant. If you have always wanted to live in a castle or in a mansion by the beach write that down! We have the Now moment, we are only limited by the mind. If you want it dream it. Even if this means living in a castle, write it down, draw it, visualize it. 

My dream was starting this, a place where I could share my passion for writing. For creating art and having an outlet for all my visions to maybe help one person. I have always wished to inspire beings, this of course has transformed in different ways over the years. I do foresee Padma Bella growing even more. 

On this eve of Pisces energy, I still read things about negativity especially because we are headed into Mars beginning it's Retrograde soon. This is nothing to be concerned about Mars going Retrograde. Sure people will talk about it, may try to seep doubt and fear into your mind about Mars properties, etc. They may say "watch out for this or that" but this is all of the mind.

I rarely even notice when things are Retrograde. When were are strong and sovereign beings, planets going backwards really does not influence. We are still beings of Gaia of course so we may have a day here and there, but just flow with it. No need to stop your life completely because guess what if its not one planet stopped or moving backwards- there will be another soon doing it. 

Enjoy tonight, if you are participating in the New Moon ritual you may do so Friday night or if you wish to do so during the day Saturday. It's whenever it calls to you to do so the energy is about for a few days. Think of the future you want. Focus on the big stuff is what I am called to, as I hear this gigantic rush of wind against the windows confirming this. Yes we may have done past manifests where we thought of smaller things, but this one I really feel it's creativity, it's treating us to the dreams we always have wanted and maybe been too afraid or thought that's not realistic so I'm not going to write that. Well do it, write all those big huge dreams even if they may not seem possible in this life, because you never know they very well could be in this New Earth that is just about here! We energetically create the future. 

Wednesday, February 26, 2014


The energy is already shifting. It's so very exciting. I am getting projects together, before of course the rain comes (which apparently everyone wishes to share this new with me). Is this a sign of some kind? I had a lovely outing today. My first trip was to one of my favorite shops and I was greeted of course with the sensation: of everyone looking at you as you enter a room just because you are glowing. I have been overall enjoying just a very pleasant day. So of course as I walk to the fruit and veggie section I got a good giggle when I noticed something off ... see if you notice silliness going on:

 At first I was thinking okay, one section. I look at the other section and come across these lemons. I started laughing and a very sweet lady comes up to me (she had a Fairy Godmother energy about her) and picks up a bag and says: you look like a very smart woman, these are lemons right? Referring to the sign on them clearly labeling them bananas. We continued to have a lovely chat about having to have a optimistic look on life and a kindred spirit she is. As you make lemon aid when you are given lemons. It was a nice amusing way to continue the day, having a complete and total conversation with a very energetic being who took a day trip on the train just to enjoy life. She decided to just pop in the store on her way to her destination, and of course she did buy some lemons. This of course reminds me that we too often get caught up in our routines of having to go get things from the store. But when you are open and not in your tunnel vision you can interact with very lovely beings and enjoy a good laugh at a shop. Which after my Lemon Fairy Godmother, I encountered a chief who was shopping on his lunch break. All he could do was sing about lettuce and even this I had to just smile because he was making his trip enjoyable also. I almost thought he was going to ask me to dance in the shop because he was having that much fun and I couldn't stop laughing at all the fun energy all about. After that  I continued on to another shop which case an elderly couple noticed how quickly and breezy I went through and they asked for my help. Even this was my way of doing an act of kindness because I didn't work there, I could have as many often do just ignore or move along. Yet I feel amazing knowing vibrationally so many are Awakening and we are just going about our time happily. 

So after my day I will share with you my happy fruit because you do have to be a fruit and just go with it. We are still headed towards the Mercury Retrograde tomorrow being the last day. Tonight we have an Aquarius moon and of course it is to rain over the weekend in my parts. As my Lemon Fairy Godmother shared with me. I see this as a cleansing is to be as a rain shift in energy and the moon energy. As you can see of course I am channeling the lower chakras at this time by the colors of the Root, Sacral and Solar Plexus.  I have been really noticing an increase in activity in my higher chakras. I have been having some very vivid dreams the past few nights, have you been noticing this too? These of course are dreams and not visions or premonitions or teleporting none of these sorts of things. It is showing me the whimsy of the world not all is serious or what is to be. I see today with the fruit and everything everything is so liberating. I really truly have been feeling like I am a completely new different person than I was before. I feel so light like there are no strings attaching me to anything else at all. It is such an intensely amazing beautiful feeling. I feel so interconnected at the same time. Perhaps you have been noticing this too. Enjoy this the New Moon in Pisces is bringing Self Empowerment and our Gifts into us. It is all about new beginnings the new phase in the journey ahead. This is a huge cycle coming up to a completion it all happens at different times for everyone. For me I feel this happening already before the New Moon but I notice I am being really sensitive to all sorts of change now. This may happen for you now or over the weekend or some time after that. There is no right or wrong in when you feel it. It depends on how open you are to this. We are transitioning into a more Authentic New!

Tuesday, February 25, 2014

Pisces New Moon March 1, 2014 Ignite Imagination

After the releasing comes preparing for the Pisces New Moon. Once Mercury is moving forward again so is our communication. The New Moon March 1, 2014 is in Pisces, which begins at 12:00AM (PT), 3:00AM (ET). Continuing with this Pisces energy it helps to re-connect to our imagination. Perhaps you have noticed reality and dwelling on the Now in terms of Earthly constraints. What is very special about March is we enter and end the month with New Moons!

The New Moon in Pisces on March 1st will help us to re-connect with our imagination. Mars in Libra goes Retrograde, so don't get so wrapped in your vision that you do nothing to manifest it. The New Moon energy now also has a forward Moving Mercury which means smooth communication. However if you don't notice an instant shift you may still be in the shadow of this Retrograde, bare with it, it will pass in a couple days (or for some may linger until March 20). Thoughts become less fuzzy the fog is finally being lifted! Now is the time to initiate something!! Visualize, write it down ... the future is yours! 

Magical things are set to happen under this Pisces energy with the Moon influence in terms of ideas. Perhaps you have felt alone at times during this month of February, did you make a right choice somewhere because you feel so alone with it. Well starting March 1, you will get energy vibrations confirming you are not alone. Energetically you are linked in. You needed this time of feeling alone to really reflect on you. The Square energy of Tuesday and the Solar Flares may have you questioning do I move into new energies or delegate activities to others? Jupiter in Cancer calls us to be bold in action yet Uranus in Aries calls the need to be thoughtless and calm. It is the balance between these that are needed for growth to happen. This is exactly where you need to be to prepare for the great shift on Saturday.

Saturday we welcome the New Moon in Pisces with a significant energy shift. Mercury Retrograde as finally released, we have released. A majority of us have let go of relationships. We have moved on and are done with the patterns. Friday night is all about focusing on intentions and your wishes. When we are free we fly. Everything is possible now in terms of setting path towards your dreams. Pisces energy has a very dreamy state which we need after we have had much reality in the Retrogrades and all the releases and loss that happened. Now it's looking to how all ideals are possible! Look to long cherished goals. Dreams can come true. Prepare for this magical dreamy ride on Pisces. What you send out comes back to you. Be grateful for all you have. Look to ways you can send out: Love, Understanding, Forgiveness ... all the things you wish in your life when you send this out it really truly does come back to you. We have gone through the Retrograde Release, we have shed it all now. For the last New Moon in March holds the new beginnings energy of Aries and if things still aren't clear they will be!

This New Moon is opening up a six month window of creativity, healing and fantasy. We are getting ready for Spring! We have the ability to create passionate projects as we are tuning into our subconscious mind. This is the time to journal, meditate, create a vision board, and look to huge subconscious clues that will be coming on Sunday! Once we have sent to the Universe our intentions once Saturn Retrogrades in Scorpio on Sunday this acts as our teacher. Saturn governs long term, long lasting goals, sound structures and re-fortifying our foundations. The relationships that ended during the Retrograde Release did not have this sound structure. So take this time to really look at how our internal and external self is. Do they match up yet? It takes doing the internal work first before we see the external magic happen. You may feel it before you "see" it. We cannot have sound structure in a relationship if we are not structured within self. Beginning on Friday we are able to observe our New Life, look to how much we have shifted from the old. I have already been doing this and it is quite amazing to observe. 

This particular energy we have this Ceremony of the New Moon empowers all intentions. For it is not an "I wish" or "I want" for anything to come to be ... no this is of the old. Magic and Miracles are possible in this we also decide what you feel which means facing and feeling all that comes to you. Look to all interacts you have over the weekend. Look at every conversation, everything you read, everything you receive, and everything you hear ... notice how these make you feel. To feel expanded, energized, giddy ... is pointing towards your higher path of Expansion in this Awakening. If you feel restricted, anxiety, fear ... this is of the old that you still need to have cleared away. Look to how you feel!

Find an outlet if you feel too overwhelmed with any one emotion do something creative, get up move around the office, dance, create art, go for a walk, anything to get your energy moving about. This is how we transform to not push our negative feelings on to someone else but transform to the New.

We are Ascending this is infinite expansion to our Truest Self, our Highest Self of Soul. We have always been, our Soul has traveled here and gone with us in all our lifetimes. For many of us the past few years we began to notice our journey not being easy because we were finally Awakening to our true path. Before this we may have felt like we were living in a fog like I don't quite fit in to this world, there is more, I am greater than this (not ego based). We are moving towards the New Earth it is honoring yourself and it's all happening! We have returned to Guide Gaia to this transformation to be the Light that shines in the darkness to inspire and guide forward. 

Notice when you react of the old, take a step back and notice. We are all coming into heightened intuition. We are downloading many different messages, as why you may be sleeping more. Allow for this, everyone experiences this differently. I have noticed my Third Eye buzzing lately. Really listen to your body. I do offer personal services if you wish direction. Just flow with the energies as they come is the simplest thing I can say. This is a time of healing with Pisces. 

New Moon Intentions

1. Create a sacred space, an alter to keep up for the entire month. Place things you wish to aid in this visualization for the month. Sage, cleanse your space (recommended entire house as well).

"I call for the greatest good for all involved, I write these intentions down for you Source to hear them and work your magic to them being so. I call for these dreams to be and to be guided by you and my angels and guides."

2. Journal truthfully all your dreams. Reconnect with your imagination. Write down long term goals. Write long cherished goals. Long term foundations. Express your creativity.

"I allow love and joyous energy to flow through me. I am at peace. And so it is."

3. Re-read and visualize all that you have written come to be. Take time to really feel this. For when you close your journal you are releasing all these to the Universe whole heartily and completely.

I do hope to have some additions to around the end of the Mercury Retrograde, however the Retrogrades have been working their silly magic and put a halt temporarily so please be patient new services and new updates on many things are coming! I will share the links here when they are working. (Stay tuned I will be doing a chakra focus starting Tuesday (March 3). So one Chakra a week to incorporate balancing each of the chakras in your life). Shop with new goodies! View:

Inner Vortex preparing for the Retrograde Release

Much Inner Vortex energy going on. We have been having many solar flares so if you have been noticing emotions and even extremely tired feelings lately this is perhaps from them. Take some self care time for you. I also was called to speak of perhaps heightened emotions at this time where you may last out. I had a dream in which I noticed frustration and the inability to speak, calling upon my horoscope which reflects this as well. To speak minds regardless but in this case we do have to move with ease because we have many planets moving and their force is driving our actions. Remember we are still in this Retrograde period. Emotions and communication are not the clearest right now. They may have slight glimpses where you seem like you are headed in the right direction but then get muddy when you try to pin point them down. 

Jupiter in Cancer is Squaring Uranus today. This is moving change with Pluto and Uranus which are in their own Square. Jupiter energy adds the need for adding nurturing to our life. We are all moving towards the new and with it comes balance. Instead of dwelling on being overwhelmed or emotional take ease in taking a breath going within and knowing there is much energy for the journey ahead. We have experienced much shifting and changing. Perhaps many loved ones have left, or you life has changed. Now it's finding the passion and willingness to just jump into your future. Even though it may seem far from now, it's going with the flow and knowing this raises the vibration and the distance is not as far off as it may seem.

Today it is about reflecting we are in the later stages of Retrogrades of Mercury and Jupiter. It is the time to align our Soul with where we are going in the bigger picture. Look to what is truly meaningful in your life, all the small other stuff won't matter as much when you let them go. I have been feeling and seeing frustration come into me from others. For the Now not knowing or at least knowing it can't work right now. Yet unsure of the future and how to get to the visualized path. Seeing patterns come up of what frustrations feel of not serving you but the things you let go serve you well more. Learning how to listen to that inner voice of the Soul. Again as I have said nothing is gone forever. I have been getting a deep sense beings want to explain their behavior but don't know how to do so. Mainly because you don't yet understand your behavior. The mind and heart are working against each other. When you cannot yet articulate it is best not to say anything. I have seen how this does not work. Yes you may think words will help, but reflect. It's always interesting to observe this behavior when you wish to keep someone at arms length and explain the "why" but yet its is better understood with feeling the "why" verses vocally telling the "why."

Today is an emotional day embrace this. It is preparing us for the magic that awaits on the New Moon. Today we have the 7 energy in a 7 year. 7 is all about the Soul and looking into the Spirit realm the Awakenings and transformations have happening when you look into your Soul to find deeper meaning. Perhaps for right now all you can hear is I don't know. In any case today is not about racing or speeding towards something it is taking your time. More will become clear once this fog of Retrogrades has lifted. I will be writing something for the New Moon on March 1. Bare with me I have various projects I am trying to complete and the Retrogrades has been giving me more technology glitch challenges. Take today as a mellow day with all the solar activity and other energies, don't push yourself too far or too hard. Enjoy the ride and what emotions come up for you. Today is the last day of 7-7-7 energies of February. I did not realize this of course but it has been magic and I do feel a deep sense of closure! It's all leading up to the Mercury Retrograde which the other magical dates of 7 were: February, 7, 16, 25. A great triangle that now is complete. The Divine Alchemy powers have led to a great sense of completion so we Now move into the New with all that is coming over the weekend. I am buzzing and energized! 

Monday, February 24, 2014

Shifting stay with it, last week of Mercury Retrograde

Various different things are all calling for me to be very humble. I really am truly bless to have some amazing beings in my life. This I do want to share. With all the turmoil of the Mercury Retrograde I have as others have been experiencing a roller coaster of emotions. In this time is truly a time of endings and letting go of the old. What I mean is this does not mean forever goodbye but in order for a transformation to happen you have to let go of all attachment of the old. It gave you strength, gave you wings. The only way to have what you truly want and wish is for this death to happen. So many different energy fluxes have been happening. I have received numerous emails and contacts asking me what do I do I still feel fear driven. This of course is the first step. Source showed me a grand beautiful destiny I realized that the only way it would come to be is of the New. We are stepping into new beginnings with the Aries energy in April. However in the mean time, you probably have noticed there are lingering things in you with all this expansion which has been brought to the surface. In the Pisces energy that is now and in March we get the gift of saying goodbye to so many things. 

I do wish to speak more about this, I am not saying it is done gone with forever. I am saying as I have experienced when you and one truly lets the Universe have it, it comes back. This week alone I had two major life things happen to me, at first it seemed overwhelming. I see what needs to be is nurturing one self this week. We have all come so far in this Mercury Retrograde journey that past four weeks has been turbulent but all lessons we needed to experience. Perhaps communication was your issue, perhaps you finally found your voice- whatever it happens to have been stirred up sit with this now. Great projects are coming, it is being humble and knowing when to just focus on you. All will be revealed soon. Mercury Retrograde ends on Friday officially however for some a shadow of it may still linger for a day or so. If you don't feel instantly refreshed give yourself time for this shadow to float away.

Perhaps you have noticed your intuitive gifts expanding and more "weird" has been happening. I have been reading and getting various questions asked about this. I too have been noticing a shift and change in my own gifts. They just are. When you feel a feeling or see something let it be, let it sit- invite in this experience. "The Soul always knows" forget how and when something will happen on a Soul level Source reveals all. Hiding feelings to yourself only delays the processes. Relationships that may have ended during the Retrograde or shifted this needed to have happen. As Relationships now and moving forwards are in the New. If you keep looking back into what was or patterns that use to be you are simply holding yourself back. Perhaps someone has always done something of the old, of the past and this you are still holding on to. They cannot change or move on when you yourself are reminding them and holding on to this past and old for them. Releasing this also does not mean you will  never again be with this person but before you can do so all aspects of the old need to be shed. For when the Soul knows you are meant to be with this person nothing is going to stop it from happening, you just are taking a detour on this Mercury Retrograde energy or until all is sorted that needs to be.

"When we intentionally listen with the desire to understand others, offer them our loving wishes and choose to see their limitless potential and NOT what is wrong with them at this temporary point in time, something happens. What happens is that our own heart is changed. We become the love that we offer to them. Until you have formed the habit of looking for the good instead of the bad there is in others, you yourself will not be happy."

New Earth is coming even last night I had difficulty sleeping as we had a flux of energy. It is a time for reflection and meditation when this happens. In this past weekend we experienced the 2.22.14 Heart energy open up here on Gaia. I was a part of a beautiful ceremony to align and bring balance to this. So continues the expansion and energy focusing around the Universal Heart here on Gaia but also our personal Heart Chakra. Perhaps you noticed emotions stirring up again we have all this with the solar flares, the Mercury Retrograde still in play so of course any number of emotions or frustrations may be coming up. It is not the time to act in fear or to feel anxiety or share or talk out of these emotions it is a time to really feel them and see what you can learn from them. The icky feelings is where the most knowledge comes sometimes when we really really face it. I know for me I experienced a day full of all sorts of icky feelings. I cried for almost full a day, a release that truly needed to happen when I accepted an outcome created a new plan for myself completely giving it all to the Universe and Source- I still did not feel true resonance within my Soul of this but I knew this lesson was for me. I could not fight it I must accept and find a new way, when I did so literally within an hour the Universe and my Angels confirmed to me this is exactly what I needed to do. Once I became humble and recognized I am not in control, when I completely let all go literally- the gifts of all were given to me. This happened a couple times over the weekend. I fought the first time couldn't sleep but when I accepted it- knew I would be okay but things may not go to how I thought of the old. Magic happened and it was in fact just a misunderstanding and everything was in fact all good. 

So take this time to see where you are still holding on to? Meditate and think a lot this week. Think not of the mind but of the heart. Open your heart to all. Realize for the New to truly come to be we all have to experience a death. How we handle the death and how we feel going through it is completely up to us. Whether we fight it and have many pains or humbly accept and pass through calmly. The Universe knows what our Heart and Soul truly wants it is working on bringing all this but first we must go in the field and expand through shedding all of who we use to be. Don't worry all the connections and relationships of the New will remember you for we truly don't shed our Soul Essence vibrations this is how we traveled here and how we have always found our way back to each other.

Not even searching I came about this quote which I will share as it is so true to my heart.

"Be empty to be full. Let go to hold on. Abandon wisdom's, for Wisdom. In silence is music, and in music is the silence of our song. Face fear to find peace. Believe nothing, to Know everything. Die to Live. Light shatters shadow. Seek the dawn. Give yourself back to me, and I shall give you new Life."

Monday, February 17, 2014


I wish to speak about ego. As I am seeing it all over the place even I am being called to look at it. I had this epiphany on Saturday morning in meditation and literally it was don't go to the place you know you can go just because your ego pushes you to. Metaphorically this can mean a ton of different things to you. I will explain all this further. The reason why I am writing it now (as I was not going to write on this topic other than just journal) but I read my horoscope which I will share with you.

This concept of not sticking with something, it's so easy to just fall into ignorance to just write it off. It's what many do often if it's out of my life I no longer have to deal with it. However the growth and expansion does not happen this way. Recently I was faced with a truth, although hiding from it is just walking away basically saying I give up is not facing it. I used this exact word "elephant" to describe it even before this horoscope even came out. So for me this has been a sign from the Universe. That just because it is not in front of me I cannot ignore this. The strength comes when you realize what is hiding and what is taking space. Clearly looking to remedy the "problems" as this repair does need to happen. Out of sight and out of mind is not facing it. The brainstorming I see is through meditation but also giving usual thought. Not logic and it's not all neat sometimes the best things are messy. It's realizing that enhancing this idea is through organizing it. Everything is pointing towards having something long lasting comes with figuring out and making the changes. Making changes is just shifting not abandoning it or just walking away literally. What Mercury Retrograde in February the eleven days has pushed you to give up what you believed was in your way to your journey. The second half of this Mercury Retrograde you begin to realize and have time to look at these issues. Take the time to look. I at first was called to not face this at all to just clear my mind and this became a wake up call. Which further came to be this message of the ego.

In my chase keeping my ego in check has been not doing anything. It is so much easier to say "I don't
need to do anything that's not my problem." "I can do this" and that's all that matters. The ego comes in and pushes us it wants us to either get defensive when a problem or person comes at us and wishes us to feel attacked. For us to shut down, throw our hands up and say see ya I can't handle this. This is all of the ego to give up to walk away to trick you into thinking you are taking time to figure things out. I see this often in various different people, the ego. Sometimes it happens with all the moon energy or planets or even use with crystals. I get people contacting me about how can I do this, how can I channel, how do I work with crystals, how do I heal? And a variety of other questions energetically I feel their imbalance they are on a high of some kind and their ego takes over. It's not something one day that you just learn and master. This is not so. Yes these bursts of energy can inspire you to look deeper into these things, if this energy stays it's not of the ego. Not saying at all when you get inspired it's always of the ego. I am talking about when you get an idea run with it and then let it go to your head and when you think it gets too hard or you see something else you wish to pursue and you shut down after all this brought you joy- this is of the ego. Even ego tells you you are not good enough you shouldn't have this-

My epiphany came when I observed so many people pushing themselves and just because they knew they could do it or were told to, they did so. I personally do moving meditation not for physical benefits or getting deeper. I see many people go just for the workout or they only stick with one kind, and of course there are all kinds and nothing is wrong with sticking with just one type. However, to make the spiritual leap you have to embrace change. I got my other dose of epiphany especially when I have been meditating with the phrase move on. This too goes with moving meditation, for a long time I was stuck in one type because I knew the health benefits of it, and I felt like I had to sweat out everything to feel better or to get somewhere. After a while I knew this was of the ego, I was being pushed too hard and switching over to a variety of styles at first I did not like- this was of the ego. I recognize that now, my heart and soul was telling me to go here but my ego was saying I needed to stick with this more challenging style.

I already knew I was committed to this but I was letting fear and my ego keep me in this spot. The transformation was happening but very slowly and I knew that this is not where I wished to be. Literally within weeks of my shifting and just changing I began to notice a huge difference. I share all this because I came to realize the fear of commitment for me was through change. In order for me to fully and whole hearted commit to this I had to let go of the ego. When I did so everything came rushing in. I am speaking in terms of goals and things you wish to achieve in your spiritual journey.

I further got more channeled information when a stat was shared that out of 100 people who practice moving meditation only 1 will make the leap to making it a spiritual journey. That was quite surprising but I see it. To brag and say oh I've been doing yoga for x amount of years this is all of the ego. Someone who has been practicing for years and years may have just been going and doing the motions but are in the same head place they were before. If you still get defensive about any part of it or talk about types that you go to- this is all of the ego. You have yet to make the leap. Of course naturally I reflected about my own practice. I started sure because of physical benefits but after a while I saw more. I would always be asked what do you want to work on, most everyone will say something physical ... I never quite understood why I would almost always answer with anything. I see that I was shifting in this. I thought too am I am ego driven because I do come often I have made this a huge part of my life. But I am not of the ego I don't wish to go anywhere I just show up and where ever I am guided I go I go.

This ego check concept I of course was reflecting on, interesting and an unexpected observation came about me. A dear person said you are the only one who listens and is always calm just cruising and can smile through it all. As if to answer the question in my head of am I working with the ego? This comes with life too, because he knows all of what I have been through and this magic journey I go on literally every time I step on this magical mat. It's literally a transforming journey. I have been guided for it to be such. I share all of this not to have an ego trip at all for me. Practicing does take you places but you have to be in the right place.

Coming back to the idea of commitment even in terms of relationships it all starts with how you handle things in life. If you fear change you fear commitment. If you fall out of things often you are afraid to complete them because that will lock you in to a form of commitment through completion of where else this may take you. If you leave it you feel like you have more control and you can go off and explore on your own. This is the ego wishing to change you in the way it wants to so that it remains in control. Knowing you are committed to someone and step away needing space on your journey is a completely different thing. As I see couples doing this realizing that some of the growth needs to happen separately. I am often asked questions on how to handle this separation, seeing the greater picture helps but perhaps only one will see this. One may not understand this separation or both may. It is helpful to have a time frame giving a certain amount of separation and self healing before coming back to access where you both are. Having a timeline or accountability is extremely helpful in this. Mainly because you are then working towards something with a deadline. Of course this deadline can be extended but I have observed that this is easier to organize a plan a schedule for yourself. Such as if you wish to get a workout situated, get into healthier eating, get a new job, move to a new place- whatever it happens to be in your life you feel is chaotic that prevents you from fully being committed in a relationship having a deadline gives you something to work towards. It's creating a boundary with yourself as well because you don't just go off doing your own thing in this time which is facing your fears.

I had an out of body experience on Saturday, one minute I was sitting down in a chair when I got an intense emotional feeling. It was a calling and longing feeling I didn't see anything or feel like I went anywhere that I remember. But the pattern was very distinct and when I realized or woke up I was dizzy and standing up with my hand on a tree.

So much of this weekend I felt like constantly being in a form of walking meditation. I did come to a place where I realized how many of us of the stars have traveled. It came very simply, as I sat in the back of a room I observed forms of beings. I was there yet somewhere else.  So many messages are of the heart to open the heart. Self love brings everything you seek. All these various messages. However, us from the stars who have traveled here we all  came here with the power of the heart. The heart connects us all. We have the ability to transform this world through love which comes from the heart. So many talk of soul mates, twin flames, twin souls- the one ... yes we all traveled in pairs. As stars our love with our co-creating partner traveled together. Although one of the pair may have not come down to this lifetime with you, the message is the same the Awakening comes further from the heart, from love. So being with an open heart is the key, being able to express this and communicate this to yourself opens up everything else. Since we traveled in pairs many many pairs in this life time have come on here in this time because of all the Awakenings and shifting. I recently realized where my stubbornness truly came from obviously as the Awakening happens dealing with a situation is dealing with yourself. Since those of us Light Beings that did travel here on earth with our co-creating partner we have many similar traits in our self or in past lives their traits were our own. If you are experiencing a difficulty truly look inside yourself. Look into the remembering on how to approach this. Sure it may seem messy now but it does sort out.

Last week I had said the 17th was another day to take notice of. Here we have Mercury Retrograde very close to the Sun which is in Aquarius. Situations and things may change quite quickly. In terms of perhaps since the start of this month you thought of ways to improve, uprooted and left things, well with the Sun influence in Aquarius to all this change that went on in the past eleven days what you thought was the way to go ... decisions may be altered now. It comes however when you don't fight it. Most often than not as you have given a lot of thought and believed this was the way to go, you have had time with this- many have acted on this Mercury Retrograde energy. However, plans are getting re-routed being put back to the original idea before all this Retrograde business happened. We wish to have success and with the Mercury Retrograde energy many have been quick to act moving away from what you believed was an issue. In search of success. But what any one else things is irrelevant it is following your heart, for this is how to heal an issue. It is using the Virgo Moon which is in- conjunct with the Aquarius Sun which gives allows you to see a different side to an issue. With this energy look to a long conversation in your head to come about - all the talking, deciding, figuring, and strategy dealing with this particular situation. It is surrendering to the heart and pushing aside the ego. Pushing aside the worry or feeling not good enough. Feeling like you have to be perfect before anything can move forward. Above all it's riding yourself of the fears. Grounding yourself in home, knowing where home is. For we are of the stars we have traveled here with our heart in such to co-create with our partner. This earthly realm filled us with fear and doubt and ego. It is Awakening and uncovering where our true home is, which resides in the heart. When we are open of the heart and really feel and look into it we discover where home is. Home is our co-creation partner because we traveled here to do the work to Awaken others no separately but together. If you truly know your partner is not here on earth it is Awakening to their energy in the Ethers.

And with Universe style I received this and it so fits.

Refreshing Full Moon Bath Energy

Special thanks to everyone and their amazing energy! Full Moon Friday was so much fun. I was able to enjoy some relaxing down time, went out made a huge crystal grid in the garden. Cleansed and released all energy from the crystals in a Full Moon bath, the whole day showed me how to be humble. Going around with an open heart more than anything I see to just stick with it. I enjoyed just being out in nature.

Full Moon in Leo shinning through the fog
Photo by Padma Bella
I have to much to be grateful for look around to who is in your life! If you have anything but positive,
well it should all be positive. Having to explain yourself to negative people that gives away your energy. Just being humble and you. The Full Moon energy really has been intense. Friday night I was able to share incredible company with some of my favorite people just having fun and being silly. It reminded me that yes we all want to fix ourself and do this and that but pushing people away is just silly. In the time of seeing how short life is, yes you can go off in your little cave and be all emo if you wish to do that but it closes off you and your heart chakra. It's being you each and every day, there is no vacation from this. If you really do want to do the work it's always constant. It doesn't have to be stressful work (all the time) but you don't lay on the couch and do nothing on the weekends, no it's meditating it's going through the process of finding out what areas of you can you dive deeper in.

Leo Full Moon in the Fog with mystic energy
Photo by Padma Bella
The Moon has mysterious properties, just look at this energy. I took this picture once I uploaded it noticed immediately the message from the Moon. 

Full Moon Release Ritual
Photo by Padma Bella
I did a variety of Full Moon rituals aside from creating a crystal grid, I did a burning ceremony in my kitchen this time and released the ashes in the garden. Some companions and I did a walk at the beach and released stuff in the sand. Ironically it was very foggy on the Full Moon of course the Moon was so bright you could still see her. The fog was so thick it was difficult to really see much of anything in front of you. This made me really think about how we all are, we know what's out there. Like we know what should be there but also what is really in front of us we just can't see it. So many people are in this fog the haze as I have been talking about. Sometimes it takes just lifting yourself out of it just a tiny bit (not all the way out) to get a view from above the fog. But if you are in the fog you do need to deal with something. I really enjoyed being able to hear the ocean but couldn't see it. Literally it was walking blind in the sand towards the waves feeling the mist but only seeing this big huge wall of black gray and trusting while walking into this abundant energy. It really was the most inspirational nature walk I've been on in a long time. Once I got close enough I could make out the waves but because of the fog the Moon Light was of course dimmer than normal. The waves just melted into each other and it all went on forever. This is how we view problems most people this never ending thing just because we can't see it means it's huge and terrible. When this is 3D.

Full Moon Crystal Grid! Aren't they singing!
Photo by Padma Bella
Refreshing after the Full Moon in Leo Friday, the Moon moves into Virgo for us to ground all this
energy we expanded and created. I went out to the crystal grid and all the crystals were singing! They not only received a Full Moon light energy cleanse but because the fog was so heavy they got a literal bath. They were so happy and singing. If you didn't recharge your crystals the moon energy still carries over today. For me I like to do the ritual of it under the moon, normally just in the window for the light to shine on them. This Full Moon I was called to create a grid in the garden. I realize why as they are literally so happy. With this energy do something that calms you, as I'm sure with all the passion energy of Leo your nerves may be a bit rattled. It's time for calming now.

Jupiter is in Retrograde also which allows of changing of old structures. What the Full Moon brought yesterday was the uncovering of some information. This may have been something that was not seen before, the fog was covering it and we saw glimpses. This knowledge or seeing something could also contribute to the decision making. Change shows up as challenge especially when you know change has to happen to continue this Ascension and expansion. Relationships do have to transform. I have stepped through this door of wonder, some are still at the threshold, it's stepping through that opening up to the bigger ideals and experiences come. If you notice you are stuck with problem or issue or you just feel stuck Pluto energy is opening you up to this. Pluto opens this slowly so as to adjust to this potential to this ideal to this realization. What I am seeing all over the place is with these Retrogrades and movement is a lot of shifting and uncertainty and just questions. Often a lot of things end in February pre-maturely only to realize what was I thinking? When it's all this change and energy that comes in and creates the confusion of what do I want?

And now some bloopers that happen behind the scenes. 

Star deciding to walk through the picture
Photo by Padma Bella
Star still wishing to play with the crystals
Photo by Padma Bella

Friday, February 14, 2014

Happy Valentine's! Full Moon Energy

I thought this was the cutest sweetest thing.
For a long time I had heard be like a penguin,
 find your penguin ...
the meaning is in the gift
not in what it looks like.
If we were a bit more humble
we would understand
a bit more and be content a bit more. 
I have found that in this new liberating energy (partially may be the awakening and so many various planets in my sign) that I am much bolder and attack challenges. I am just going for  it so to speak. I am noticing this more and more. I have limited if just no hesitation at all. It is being just me. This is being recognized. This imagery of pouncing has been coming up quite frequently which as some know this has been my word last year. We have done all the work and the assessing but after a while you just have to pounce on whatever or whoever it is. So with this Valentine energy this goes with anything really not just matters of the heart or pouncing your beloved. It is tackling challenges and just going for it. In the last two days I have tried two new things which I couldn't ever do before. It really is all of the mind once we Awaken our Inner Strength. Others may see it or vibrationally feel it and we just shut down or curl inward wishing to protect our self. With all this Inner Power there is no need to fear because going out and experiencing it is so amazing. I invite you all to try one new thing a day if that is too adventurous try one new thing a week. See how that makes you feel. Put yourself out there. It does not have to be in public or advertise it but do this but try anything new. It can be very simple from trying a new recipe to hand stand to snow boarding ... whatever it is.

This morning I woke up once again to the Moon shinning her energy in my window and had some amazing dreams. I enjoyed sharing my Valentine morning and all I was told was "Open your Heart" on repeat. The vibration is definitely buzzing. I was guided to a particular meditation (which I have done in the past) it seemed like before it was sort of an "experiment" but the Universe made it all happen. That was the cool thing was going back and basically shared a dude guess what! moment. I put it out to the Universe my perfect day. Living loving awareness the Universe made it happen. I still stick with this because magic does happen!

I know today is not at all about gifts or stuff but how cute is this surprise?!! I am sharing this as it makes me laugh sock monkey and going to definitely be having my tea in this mug today! Sharing and sending out many Valentine's because it's super fun! Open up remember how cool it was as a kid to just get a surprise. So let silliness be of today if you wish it. Enjoy the Full Moon energy  if you start to feel blah about being alone today, this is of the ego. Just do an ego check put everything into prospective you are alive, you get to do whatever you want today! And it's Friday!! I do wish to thank my Valentine! I got the best surprise that completely made my day =) When you are humble the Universe delivers.